Delighted mood^^

yeah~~~!!!...wednesday will be holiday! that good ,pretty good...hahha..........i have sick of push myself to wakeup early morning..I just want to wake up slowly,read a news,then just go take a bath,then just go eat breakfast... random & set it free ......finally i got a holiday!

猪脚一对哈哈哈哈 很恐怖

Work hard today..many work gonna to settle!& still many thing i need to continue aft wed...em...luckly i am not felling stress..i felt excited can learn.The important thing was after many year,i just found my passion on fashion design & graphic design..& i got chance to learn both now...sooo...i still grateful that i can learn...

I get some software book to help me improve my skill....i really got passion now...& what i planning to do now was to repair my sewing machine & i will learn properly sewing now..If a designer cant make out the creation,then this designer was handicapped ^^ i not going to be such a person.Until nowaday i just found my love on it,&

 i really comfirm that i want to be professional in this line.yup!I know i got the talent,last time i dun know y i studying fashion

fashion,i dun like it at all,but thanks God clear my mind for wat i want &fighting for my vision now~ .

Gambateh !~~

神对我说过：不要靠样貌赚钱，不要靠劳力赚钱，靠专长赚钱。

from that day i get this message from God,i decide to back to this industry.^^

nice?i done by software...today

Doing some gift box,poster,katalogue,name card,photoshooting  by today..really tired..Having a rain at busy hour...shk....~~super traffic jam! i used one hour to reach home..crazy...everyday also heavy rain at busy hour......wu~~~i think to piss along the journey...extremely suffer...!haha.i guess u tried b4 too...haha

I went to register at a dance academy today after work~http://www.taipandanceworld.com/......

it just near by my house,that good! i gonna to start my 1st class at this academy on next wed 8.30pm..i took the free style dance now...i guess i got talent geh~as long as i really love dance...

i am such a lame gal...my only hobbies was Online surfing,watch Project runway&dance. I felt any problem wasn't any problem anymore during i did  those activities.^^

yea,i download a software to listen Bible during i driving & working...This a good way to avoid i dun have time to study bible..wu~~sorry God i alway lazy..

                         After registration i went to shopping at a butik near by my house..This is my 1st time step in.&i totaly love this shop...Lets check it(www.facebook.com/sensebooutique)...every weekend this butik will got new arrival ..the outfits inside was really different with others shop..majority outfits was only in few piece or one piece(so a bit expensive).majority designed by local designer...& those accessories was unique too..haha,it good to have a not bad quality butik near by my house...^^

I bought it...!and a maxi dress too..^^Do u know,i felt very enjoy shopping inside.During the time,outside rainning like hell..& i view all the piece inside the shop wf the jazz music they played ...i think is a important technique to attach customer with good music. 

Everyone say me become skinny jor..i know too..when i unhappy i less to eat..i do have some problem b4 ,never mind i eat a lot today! i eat RM10++ every meal...hehe...i wan my boob back...haha!

My boss even bad,said me 瘦到变态。。he fat jiu fat la...cakap orang pulak!!!^^

doing some random sketch at home after that...peace moment...i love to write down my mood too.

snap down my happy mood ..

I was so excited Project Runway season 9 episod 13 finally out!!!i everyday think this...I cant wait to know who will be the winner!

http://www.mylifetime.com/shows/project-runway/season-9/designer-portfolios

The designer i admire to was Anya,Joshua M,Oliver&Antony ryan..I not really like Victor,even i know  mostly he will win,anyway his work just failed  to catch my attention.Its too normal.This Tv program make me crazy..i totally obsessed into !!!U cant imagine i every moment at my room was only repeat & repeating each episode...even until i slept...crazy .. I am tat kind of person when i fall in love i was totally  lost my mind.aisk~~

& another happy thing was my ex student gift me this rose pen...I just put beside my bed....pinky from a boy!haha

Is time to bed.

GOOD NIGHT city!

我不想动，不想出门，不想吃，不想分享，不想娱乐，不想笑，不想被关心，不想工作，不想看到电话，不想听音乐，不想讲话，不想看到任何人。。。。。。。。
                                                                  
                                                不想不想不想
                                           问题如何解决
                                                   何时解决
                                                    自卑
                                            自责    
                                                       自尊

我想一个人搭火车到海边去。仅此而已。

1.都什麼時候了 (修改)

作詞：林夕
作曲：KSK(Kevin Kumar／Sean Kumar)
製作：JimLee、張惠妹

這都什麼時候了　怎麼一點都不餓
別人在吃喝玩樂　那我又該等待什麼
電話　關了　沒一個　想接的
你會找我　不會了
不想了　沒任何人要等
也沒有　什麼事想發生
也無所謂　怕不怕　寂不寂寞
該怎麼就怎麼

好像忘了捨得捨不得　假的真的為你
值不值得　算了
如果快樂都捨得我不知道　我不知道　快樂

這是什麼日子呢　勉強出去幹甚麼
熱鬧是屬於他們的而我只屬於自己了
看電影免了喝咖啡夠了我去了又如何
不知道想要什麼只知道什麼也不想做
轉載來自 ※Mojim.com　魔鏡歌詞網
誰跟我說　笑一個　一個　然後呢
好像忘了開心不開心　假的真的為你
曾經為你　快樂　所以就　不快樂
值不值得　值不值得

不值得哭　不值得哭　誰要看我哭
你曾經讓我變得不孤獨也是你讓我更孤獨
所以真的假的我還這樣我還這樣對你在乎
沒有何苦不何苦　我開心因為我好像

忘了開心不開心　假的真的為你
曾經為你快樂　所以就不快樂
值不值得　值不值得
不值得
捨得　為你　不快樂
值不值得　還值不值得

                                                    

但愿有颗温柔的心愿意暂时借一借给傻猫

心情真的很不好，很冷很灰~我最爱的器官就是耳朵。真诚的被聆听。但谁愿意当我那永恒的耳朵？在这个现实中似乎是奢求。人人都有烦恼，谁愿意背负别人的烦恼。我也不愿当个自私的嘴巴。唯有靠我的双手将内心的世界发泄出来。不管有谁有同感。怜悯的就怜悯吧，取笑的就取笑吧，冷漠的就冷漠吧。但愿有颗温柔的心愿意暂时借一借给傻猫。

该哭吗。但是我就是心酸到没有表情。渴望以前那个熟悉的肩膀像以往般让我靠，但是我真的不想再把压力与他分享。我知道神要我学习独立。的确独立多了，但是很多时候都得一个人扛。感觉真的孤独。

今天真的很糟糕。工作上的挫折的确有点令我投降。我那内向孤僻的人格的确连累了我很多年。从学业，社交，工作。很想一脚把这块绊脚石踢开，但是要改变谈何容易。

自我的傻猫。喜欢一个人吃午餐，总比参与同事们的是非团好。我的确忍受不了他们。他们的言语，令我惨不忍听。我觉得在浪费我的时间。我喜欢一个人看报纸，看杂志，做我觉得比较有意义的事。没想到也多了不合群的罪名。但是，话不投机半句多。很不愿意的，我被逼改变参与他们，浪费一小时多批评，嘲笑，论断，自贬或自夸。

我害怕和陌生人对话。有时对方的恶意陷阱可让我招架不住。在职场上我觉得最好保持距离。一切美好，安全。

今天又因为我的内向失去一些机会。我不会哭。我会站着。站得好好的。让你们看到损失的不是我。

我的确有好胜的一面。相当。

曾经因为内向孤僻的人格被拒绝。（感恩幸好是被完全不适合的人）真的感谢那位先生，令我意识到我有一面是完全不可爱的。很快的我完全转变成开朗活泼的那一面。很感激那时我就意识到太多的自我情绪真的令自己看起来很愚蠢。

一直以为我不可爱的那一面消失了。我活得很好啊，很开心，很多朋友。但是我从来不会掩饰自己偶尔想法出现的问题，很忧郁，很愤怒，很激动等。我会分享，我不像某些人总掩饰的很完美，很幽默，其实最多烦恼的是他。我不是气压锅，无需要因面子自尊让压力烦恼逼爆自己。身体会出毛病，很正常。同样的，内心也有这样难过得时候。

很多功课要学习。学习在激动时保持平静，学习在虚伪中保持真诚，学习融入并爱不可爱的人，学习爱，爱梦想，爱工作，爱发表。

和那片在晨曦中的一点黑，一点蓝，说，我再见。

Random post for Dad birthday

We had drove back to hometown ,Pahang on last Saturday..for .My dad birthday ^^

em~looking for gift are always annoying me..especially for king size retired people...haha...not to choose handphone,no tie,no doll,no decoration stuff....aiks..what else ???

I love doll,who will present to me next year?

haha...its funny if i gift this to my dad......impossible...bt i love it...it cost RM 400...em~damn

hahha...i love this kind of doll..handmade of socks...& button,,nice right?creative enough..

my outfit of my working day..i love the vintage rose top from my mom ...^^

can i choose this for dad???hahaha...

so i just pick a BHPC shirt for my dad...hehe..done..

  

 

OK! is time to go home ....from my sis house!

REACH! after 2 hour...^^my lovely hometown that i grow up ..i am born in taiping,but i grow in a village in Pahang..i stay at Cameron Hignland b4 too...the place i most love is cameron Highland for the western style.

 The doggy that abandoned  by my sis ..haha..sent it from KL to pahang..Now my parent was take care of it..Its life guarantee better..^^

our room

 

                         Long time dint come back ..felt...everything still in remain...felt sweet & warm...

hai!

preparing for cook!We are not going restaurant for celebration as usual this year..we will cook for it...^^

 sweet couple^^ )

We have been having so much fun this 2 days. I have never seen anything fresh like this in my life!

  the sky began to change in darkness...and we have our celebration dinner...prepare by us..

handmade cake from sis..

This is my card for my dad..i did it by computer & print it out.....^^

bless pray b4 cut the cake & eat our warm family dinner..

My happy family..the thing i most to be proud in my whole life & most grateful to God was I having a wonderful,perfectly,delighted,joyful,straight forward ,simple& full of love family!!!Smile.....

sooooo cute right my dearest dad!

nothing to do ,sooooooo let me threaten u guys!hahah..random post mah...sleep & prepare to go back city tomorow...sad~~~~~~

we are going back to city.........

当车子从幽幽丛林中开往到钢水丛林时，我的心情都很复杂。
我喜欢城市的热闹喧哗
但是无论城市多吸引
游子心中还紧紧联系在乡下的双亲

no more family meal,eat fast food again .....pity.......

Dad,Its another day for u,God picked another petals on your flower,wishing your flower may bloom for year

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